Thursday, December 5, 2013

The College Turnaround

So Thanksgiving break was great. Fantastic, in fact! There was family, friends, and food! (man, look at that alliteration). Awesomeness and peace. A wonderful break. However, once Sunday came I was dreading driving the three hours back to Wartburg and being back at college in general.

One of my friends goes to Southern Illinois University in Edwardsville. I love her to death, and I missed her bunches. But once I started talking to her about college I realized I wasn't having the greatest experience at college. While hanging out with her she was texting and emailing her friends from college. I didn't feel the urge to text any of my friends from here. Texting them about anything other than when we're eating seems strange. I began to compare and despair on college experiences. I've never been to a college party. My friends don't stay up late with me talking or watching movies. I don't go out on the weekends or leave campus much at all! WHAT KIND OF COLLEGE LIFE AM I LIVING?!?!

So after that I convinced myself I hated college. Well, maybe not college, but Wartburg. I told myself that I don't have close friends here. There aren't enough opportunities here other than my academics. I don't have fun here ever. Right before leaving I told my mom that we might need to look into transferring schools. I was serious. And I cried a lot of the way home.

But now that it's Thursday and I've gotten back into the swing of college I love it here. I think I've had more fun this week than I have this entire semester. I've been a lot more social, while still being productive, and I have been more open to actually loving it here.

For example, on Tuesday night I went Christmas shopping with my lovely roommate, Abby. We scored big deals at Goodwill and decorated our room. It's Christmas, yo. And Christmas makes me happy. Then last night we actually had people hang out in our room!!! Like, seriously. People never hang out in our room. We don't know why because it's a pretty awesome room. Especially with the Christmas decorations. We just sat in our room and talked for a loooong time. We were gonna watch a movie, but I was fine drinking hot chocolate. And then it got emotional. Solution? Oreo cereal. Yeah, it's a real thing and two people consumed it that were participating in this awesome hangout last night. I guess that the past two days I've started to actually connect to people here and realize that awesomeness does exist outside of my hometown.

So there's that. I've decided that college is what I make it. Prior to break I was so focused on my studies and a set routine. But once I talked to other people at home about their college experiences I realized I was shutting out social opportunities. I wasn't building relationships because I wasn't allowing my relationships to be a construction zone (great metaphor, right? ehh...). Sure, college isn't all about the social life, but I might as well get to know the people that are around me every day. Otherwise there's not really a chance for me to like it here at all.

And now I am starting to. Great timing right? 2 weeks before a long break I realize I like it here. Oh well. This way I'll be able to start the New Year over with some awesome resolutions which include, but are not limited to, enjoying the college life.

Friday, November 29, 2013

My Name is Khan

I really enjoyed this movie. It was an overall feel-good movie. I think it captured the religious stereotyping quite well. The situations weren't too extreme in my opinion. I'm sure a lot worse has happened, but viewers will find this plot more realistic. There were only a couple of things I had problems with. First of all, the cheesy Bollywood music. I know it's necessary, and it was a great background support for the happy moments of the film. However, there were some questionable times when it was playing. An upbeat tune is not a very good accompanying piece when Mandira starts meeting with people to bring justice to Sameer's death, but there it was! Also, I was kind of surprised that people who encountered him did not at all address the fact he has Asperger's. Yeah, it'd be great if they were treated like normal citizens, but they aren't a lot of the time. And a lot of the time they need to be treated differently (mainly in developmental stages and such).

I still am fascinated by how much religion is a part of countries. The United States has separation of church and state, but in other countries that is not the case. Often the laws of the country are made from the laws of the religion. I read Reading Lolita in Tehran my junior year of high school. I loved the book. A lot of the reason was because I love books and the idea of book clubs, but also I loved learning about the lifestyle of women in Tehran. I didn't know much about it at all. I won't write a lot about it here because some of you have read it and I don't want to rewrite my Scholars application paper in this blog (unless you all are dying  to read it), yet there are some things I find interesting now after seeing "My Name is Khan."

There was a woman that wore a head scarf and was a professor or something. She said the scarf was a part of who she was. In the book, the women resent the head scarf much of the time. They don't like what it stands for. The participants of the book club didn't wear it while in the home of Azar Nafisi, the author of the book. I suppose it's all about personal experiences though. The professor in the movie stopped wearing it for a while, but it was because of the stereotyping that happened in America, whereas the book is more about the put-down of women in Tehran.

Everyone has their own experiences with their religions. Sometimes we love it, sometimes we hate it, and often times we question it.

Sunday, November 24, 2013

What I learned about London from my brother

My brother is a senior at Augustana college, so this year he has to complete a Capstone project. He is majoring in biology and environmental science with a minor in philosophy. Quite the academic, eh? I think he should write a book. Anyways, he decided to do his project on seed saving. For the past two weeks he has been travelling around London, England conducting interviews and visiting points of interest regarding seed saving. The reason he chose London is they have one of the largest seed banks in the world. It's quite fascinating, really.

He showed my parents and I pictures and explained all kinds of stuff about seed saving. Basically, when someone discovers a new species of plant, they take the seeds and send them to a seed bank where they are processed, frozen, and stored in hermetically sealed containers. Not all species of plants are stored in London, however. Only about 12% of the plant population is there. But when you think about how many species of plants there are in the world, that's a lot. These seeds are all kept in two rooms at the seed bank. Just TWO ROOMS. They must very efficiently pack them in there. Also, they are ordered by a specific coded system to ensure no one can break in and easily find what they're looking for. It's pretty sneaky of them.

A part of seed saving that is really super awesome is that if a species goes extinct, there's a large chance one of the seed banks in the world has at least one seed from that specimen. With that one seed a species of plant can be reborn. My brother had some pictures of plants that were being regrown. He also had a picture of this one huge plant that either produces one large leaf made up of many small leaflets or, every once and a while, a single flower. This flower is the largest in the world and apparently smells like rotted meat. Yummy.

Carlisle, my brother, also spoke to us about other random things he learned in England. First of all, he told us about the announcements at the subways. A lady's voice would come over the intercom and announce something, ending every announcement with "mind the gap." He said it was annoying. Also, because England is one of the few countries where one drives on the left side of the road, they have to paint on the road which way pedestrians should look in order to avoid being hit by a vehicle. Apparently the English also like to take stuff from other places and keep it. This includes species of trees.

My brother researched one summer in Colorado and he had a friend that now goes to Oxford for graduate school. He met up with her while he was in England. First of all, he visited the Great Hall in Christ Church College. This is where the the dining hall scenes in Harry Potter were filmed. People who are a part of Christ Church College have formal dinners EVERY NIGHT of the week. That's pretty cool. His friend said that her college only has formal dinners once or twice a week. No big deal or anything. Also, students wear full academic regalia (cap, gown, tassel, etc.) to their final examinations. Yep, they wear all of that just to take a three hour exam. Awesome. Undergraduate studies work differently, too. The students will have a few lecture courses, but they also meet individually with professors who give them other outside work such as readings and essays which they then discuss together. It seems like a much more intimate and individualized kind of learning. Very interesting. I'm not sure I'd like it.

After seeing all of his pictures and hearing his stories I really want to travel somewhere awesome and have stories and experiences of my own. It will all happen in due time.

P.S. Dr. Birgen, could I get a culture point for this informal talk my brother gave to my family and I? :)

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

A culmination of the day's festivities

WARNING: There will be no organization to this blog. This will accurately represent the lack of organization of thoughts when it comes to topics brought up today in general.

Rape culture and feminism, I was delighted to learn about you from the wonderful Ella. I thoroughly enjoyed her passion about the subject and her desire to keep the focus on facts. However, our class was somehow unable to just sit quietly and take in the data that she would be able to support with references, I'm sure. Almost everything said was challenged by someone in the peanut gallery. Sure, this is a controversial topic, but I think we could have at least given her time to fully explain the information before pouncing! And don't even get me started on getting off topic onto other topics which lead to heated opinions being thrown about that aren't even related to correct subject matter. For example, there was a picture of Miley and Robin performing at the VMAs. She was going to talk about the performance and song in relation to rape, but somebody instead brought up the changes Miley has gone through and everything. IRRELEVANT.

Anyways, on to my next thought...

I used to think 'Oh, we're just getting heated in arguments because of the topics,' but now I realize that EVERYTHING is a heated topic for our class. I love that we all have our own opinions and are willing to share them. However, we need to be respectful of other's opinions as well (see "Maybe we actually SHOULD read this book...?" for more on that topic). We don't have to agree, but at least listen to what other's are going to say. Or even simpler, let them finish their statement before starting a new one. We can at least do that, right? (I hope so).

I have another idea I came up with today! I personally enjoyed learning about something from someone who is passionate about the topic. It would have been AWESOME if all of our classes were like this one. Each of us has a passion about something. Why not give every student a day where they lead the class in a lecture-type-thing about said passion. It would be a great way to learn a lot of things and a lot about our classmates.

The only trouble with this is that some people are passionate about controversial topics.

Oh no! What will we do?!

I think that people should just man up and deal with the presence of differing opinions in a positive way. This does NOT include interruptions, snide remarks, rude looks, or muttering under your breath. It does include listening, being patients, being kind, and being respectful of others. The only topics that should be steered clear of are those which are "triggers." These topics affect the core of one's being in a negative way. Not just because they are against it, but because of a personal experience that has haunted them. For example, rape would not be a good topic to discuss in class if a victim of rape is sitting in one of the seats. There are various ways to evaluate the topics that are off-limits, but since this idea won't actually come to fruition I won't go ahead and talk about that.

On to another thought.

We talked a lot about rape not being taken seriously. This is true. It is not taken seriously. A lot of serious things are not taken seriously. Offensive statements are said and people get hurt. Our society has become somewhat numb to other's feelings. Our feelings are still quite important to us, but most people disregard the possible consequences of actions regarding other people. I know I already wrote a blog about this topic, but there were some things that I'm sure were left unsaid. On the other side, people should be less sensitive to thoughts shared. Not everything is a personal attack. I know that I am one of those people that tends to personalize everything, so I'm being a slight hypocrite, but we should be able to look outside ourselves for a bit and see OTHER PEOPLE EXIST. Gasp. I know, it's a shocking truth.

On to feminism!!!!

Well, actually I'm not going to talk about feminism really. One thing that in general annoyed me about the feminism argument is the fact we are generalizing the two genders so much. I think that every person is different, and so saying "Women do this" and "Men do that" is kind of pointless. I think we've come far enough in this society of equality that we can't lump everyone together based on gender and make a valid argument. Everyone is different, so everyone will probably be treated differently. Equality ain't no thing. Also, I believe the reason there are more men in the medical professions is because more men choose to become doctors, not necessarily because they are more successful in math and science. If more women pursued the career then maybe it would be more equal. We all have different talents and different passions.

So next time a point is brought up that is generalizing a population we should remember that it is a blanket statement and there WILL BE EXCEPTIONS to the generalization ALWAYS. Instead of pointing out every little exception during the class time, realize that the person making the generalized statement probably knows it is a generalized statement and there will be exceptions.

Now that that unorganized little rant is done...

While I was coming up with my GENIUS IDEA of how the Scholars class could have been conducted, I realized that I don't know what my chosen topic would be. I don't really know the thing I'm most passionate about. I'm kind of a renaissance man in the way that many things interest me pretty equally. I'll just ask my parents what I rant about most to them.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Anxiety and expectations

In school I've always been one of those people that has trouble tolerating being in a class with people who slack off. I just don't get it. How can they stand to live their lives if they don't complete their assignments on time or get A's on tests or practice for three hours every day? It just doesn't make sense! If I have something that needs to be accomplished, I get it done as soon as possible. Otherwise the thought of needing to get something done will weigh down on me. I can't think or speak without my mind wandering to a thought in the back of my mind saying, 'Hey, Emma. You know that music theory worksheet that's due in three days? You better get that done. NOW!' 

I don't know why I'm so anxious about it. It's not like my parents have ever needed to push me to do homework. I do it naturally. Not because I want to necessarily, but because I feel like I need to. It's a do or die thing. I know, I really need to get my priorities straight. Anyways, the reason that I have such anxiety surrounding the need to be successful in everything I do is that society has decided to place this expectation on people in this generation. I don't know why they have decided to raise the standards so much, but they have. 

For example, I learned a lot more material in high school than either of my parents. After seventh grade, I couldn't ask my dad for help with math homework, and he was really good at math in high school and college. The curriculum has become a lot more rigorous, especially with all the honors courses and AP courses that put many students ahead of the already accelerated coursework. 

It would be ridiculous of me to claim that the change in standards came only for my age group. It's been a gradual process, I know. As more knowledge becomes attainable and more resources become available, there is more to be taught, more to learn. 

One major problem we have today is with how we measure success. It's all about the grade or the percentage or the GPA. But, let's face it, that may not be a very accurate way of evaluating a person's success. Then again, what is success? 

I believe success to not be dependent on how well I do on a test. There have been plenty of times that I don't do as well on an exam as I wanted to. However, if the mistakes I made were due to stupid errors instead of unpreparedness, I'm able to get past the grade. That is until a classmate rubs in their 125% they received. Then I start to get upset. I feel like I've let someone down. Myself? Maybe. My parents? Probably. 

I'm not sure why I think my parents will think less of me because of a silly letter grade. They never have and they never will. Unless of course I start failing all my classes. But that won't happen. I have anxiety, remember? I also like to "compare and despair" a lot between myself and others. Another skill taught to us by society. We have so many competition shows on the television these days that it's hard not to get competitive in everything we do. I probably wouldn't be so competitive in school if everyone else around me in high school would have chilled out for a bit. 

Back to what success is. I don't think it's dependent on a letter grade. It's not about how well I do on a test, but about what I learned from the class. There is some information I learned in high school and was tested on that is quite irrelevant to my life. Sure, it was nice to know for a bit, but I don't need it now. The information that sticks with me is what i'm passionate about and what I enjoy. That is what is more important. In college, the pressure is on more because we take classes specifically for our major which will then translate into a career that will affect the REST OF OUR LIVES (no pressure). 

In the end, our grades won't matter. What will matter is the way we lived and how we felt about it. What will matter is how we grew from experiences: either positive or negative. I know this point has been preached before. If you're annoyed by hearing this then I want you to take a step back and evaluate whether you measure your success on the scale that matters most. I know that I am still stuck on grades, but I'm trying to outgrow that. With a little practice I just might be able to. And with it, perhaps my anxiety will lessen and I won't get panic attacks when I'm at home doing something enjoyable instead of practicing piano. 

I could write so much more about living life to its fullest, but I should go to bed soon. I also should think about becoming a philosopher, eh, eh? 

But really...should I minor in philosophy?

That would drive my mom nuts. I know she's already thinking it's weird my brother's minoring in philosophy...I just might do it anyways.

Because existentialism sounds fun. 

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Maybe we actually SHOULD read this book...?

So I'm reading Six Questions of Socrates, right? Yea, I know, I'm probably the only one that actually reads this book, but I like it. I'm reading "What is good?" and I find it very interesting.

So far there has been a lot of discussion about treating others as human even though they are different in race, religion, or opinion. We must accept others as people even if we differ from them. Just because they aren't exactly the same as us doesn't mean they aren't human. This applies greatly to arguments, or what our scholar's class likes to refer to as "debates." I put the quotation marks around that word because we always shy away from debates because we treat them as if they are arguments in which no one wins and everyone gets hurt. I think we're big boys and girls and can fend for ourselves and depersonalize the points made by others, but it's up to the leaders what we do with our time.

Anyways here is a nice quote from one of the participants of a conversation with Christopher Philips: "Instead of trying to win an argument...we voiced our concerns, but also we really opened ourselves up to the concerns of the other"(166).

What's that? They were able to say what they believe, but also listen and respect an opposing opinion? I didn't think that was possible. I'm not specifically criticizing our scholar's class but society in general. We are often much too self-consumed to look outside of ourselves and examine the lives of others. Their lives are just as important. True, our own personal lives will be more important to us than the lives of others most likely. However, this doesn't mean we can completely disregard others as people. We constantly are thinking about the rights of homosexuals and other groups because the rights denied them are much more obvious. However, everyone has rights that are sometimes disregarded by other individuals. So perhaps we should also be fighting for our own personal rights to live.

It seems kind of silly to do that, doesn't it? It should be a given that we will live how we wish to live. True, we can live how we want, but that doesn't mean others will agree with it. Maybe it's not important to pay attention to what others think about you, especially when its something ridiculous like not liking the way you choose to live. So ignore those who don't accept you the way you are; that's all fine and dandy. However, I challenge you all to not have to be those people that have to be ignored. Accept others for who they are. Love thy neighbor as you would love yourself. Listen, truly listen, to what others are saying. You don't have to agree, but you do have to acknowledge its presence. You could even go a step further and even try to understand it.

For further reading, open up your Six Questions of Socrates book to page 162 and read.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

As promised: a blog about abortion

Since I'm the one that mentioned blogging instead of "debating" about abortion, I figured I should probably follow my own advice and blog about my views.

A lot of people have an opinion about abortion due to their religious affiliation or political ideology. However, I'm not particularly political and my faith is what I make of it. I am pro-choice. I haven't been particularly swayed by my family's opinion because we don't often discuss abortion. My mom has occasionally brought it up when elections roll around, but other than that it stays out of my house.

I don't really have an organized list of things to say about why I'm pro-choice, so I apologize if I start to ramble or not make sense in any way, shape, or form. I tend to do that when my thoughts are unorganized and I don't know how to organize them.

I believe all people have the right to do what they want with their bodies. What they do, doesn't affect me, so I don't think I should be arguing. I also don't believe in murdering. Because of this, I don't plan on having an abortion myself. That's my choice. I've never been in a situation where abortion is an option, and I don't plan to be any time soon, so I can't say for sure what my choice would be. I love having options to choose from in almost all situations of my life. It helps me feel more free and independent, less constricted, less anxious. I'm not being forced one way, I can choose another path to take. The same is true with abortion. Those who are pregnant should have the choice to terminate the pregnancy if they believe that is the best option for them.

I do like throwing out some guidelines for abortion though. I believe that the abortion must happen within a certain number of weeks of the beginning of the pregnancy. This way, the fetus is not too developed. Sure, it's still a human life and whatnot, but it seems more humane the earlier the abortion happens. Also, girls should not be getting abortions willy nilly just because certain methods of birth control didn't work or they lost their ability to make good decisions for a night. There has to be something more to the reasoning. If the child is going to be born into an unfit environment and suffer a majority of their life or have severe functional disabilities that will be unsupported for a lot of their life then abortion seems like the best way to go. Less suffering on the child's part. Also, if the woman is going to die due to the pregnancy, I believe she has the choice to abort the baby. I'm sure there are some mothers who would rather give up their life then give up the baby, but that's the beauty of choices.

I love living and I wouldn't ever want to take that away from anyone. However, quality of life is also important, and sometimes the well-being of a child will suffer if it is born. I can't seem to find the right words to articulate all of my opinions, so I apologize, but I think you all got the gist of my standpoint on the matter. I have a strong opinion, but I don't preach it often and I certainly don't push it on anyone. Just like with abortion, people have a choice in what they believe.